I was just "blog surfing" and came across such a stark rant that a child had for a parent. It was ugly; it was detailed; it was ANGER SPEAKING OUT.
Call me naive, but even if a person has been truly hurt, physically and emotionally, by a parent, is a blog the right path to take for venting? EVERYTHING you ever say in blogland "can and will be held against you." Even if you keep your identity secret, there is always something in a post that will give it away. Google archives hold you and your words captive for a very long time!
If it isn't a personal counselor/analyst you choose to speak to, then write a letter detailing your thoughts, but certainly do not post them. Those words are coarse, and ugly, and I really don't know how cathartic they are for you. I do know that I, as an innocent bystander, am more than embarrassed to read them...especially from a fellow Jew.
You rant in one post, and in the next post, you want to retract your words and announce your apology for venting so publicly, so loudly.
Your pain is palpable, but you can never retract those uttered words... Google's gotten hold of them and just won't let them go without a struggle.
Walk before you run. Look before you leap. Think before you speak.
Sometimes you just have to use those same lessons that a nasty parent might have taught you.