Friday, January 25, 2008

I'm Still Here...

...just rather busy and preoccupied these days with a number of things.

Among those things, my mother-in-law had some serious surgery and a prognosis one doesn't generally care to hear. She's currently recovering in hospital...

I have a bar mitzvah to plan for late June and have done nothing yet. Yes, I know the date, I know the venue, I know the type of meal I want, but I've not done anything aside from formulate some random names for guest lists. Planning a long-awaited simcha is never easy, but when illness is hovering in the background, it's really not easy.

I am on a contract till the end of February supposedly, but am crazy busy currently meeting deadlines and making sure that the 7 textbooks (university/college level) I'm responsible for as a production editor will make their printer dates with all the necessary information pertaining to the text appearing in the text as it should. I've been doing a fair bit of weekend or late-night, at-home overtime work to meet these deadlines and I'm simply wasted!

I'm busy with my kids and their homework and carpooling and...

To sum up, I'm here, but I'm not here. I tune in to some of your posts, but not all. I tune in to your posts some days, not others.

I want to write something witty, something creative for you, but it's not there -- at least not at the moment.

What is pretty consistent in my life right now is a sense of anxiety -- there's so much going on, coming at me/us from all different directions, it's tough just to keep up.

I can't wait for my Shabbos nap; in a way, I can't wait for my contract to end. I want to reclaim a sense of self, some true "me" time...and my husband and I have to be able to find some true "we" time, as well.

And hopefully I'll soon be able to reclaim a sense of "blogger", as well.

In the meantime, you can catch all my reruns in the right-hand margin. The archives take you back to December 2004. Why not start there and reread my words from the beginning? See if I wrote differently back in the early days of my blog, if my tone was different, if my humor was funnier?

Perhaps if you reread my early stuff, you'll realize you're sorry that you only began to tune in to me and my blog in May 2007 or -- GASP! -- even later than that; you'll realize you were missing a good thing from the start.

One can always wish, can't they...?

4 comments:

cruisin-mom said...

Hi Pearl...It's good to hear from you...I was wondering if you were alright. Sounds like you have so much going on. Hopefully you will keep us posted more often. Take good care of yourself

muse said...

refuah shleimah

Oslo was announced less than a year before my elder son's Bar Mitzvah. According to Rabin's plans, we were to be homeless refugees before the joyous event. I froze all plans of inviting all the world to a convenient summer simcha. In the end I put something together in the very last weeks. And yes, we're still here in Shiloh. But Olmert wants to banish us....

rabbi neil fleischmann said...

Some of us were around in the early days and thank G-d are wtill here. Glad life is filled with some good busy for you.

G-d Bless,
Neil

orieyenta said...

Refuah Shlemah to your mother-in-law.

...Planning a long-awaited simcha is never easy... I'm sure it will be wonderful. And then after that, do you want to help plan a wedding? Hee hee.

We miss you. Let me know if you manage to get that Shabbos nap - those darn things are so elusive in these parts! :)